I can’t believe it’s nearly March already, February really has been one big blur, and I expect March may be the same, maybe April too, cos I’m doing a lot of things at the moment. I started Art Class this month, I also started Meditating and I’m also in the process of moving to a new flat! Doh!

Getting ready to move has taken up some time at the weekends as I’ve been having to sort out all the cupboards and throw stuff away. You think it’ll take an hour to empty the cupboards but the next thing you know, 6 hours later and you’re still not done lol

So that’s something that will be on going for a month or so, the Art Class was something I’ve been wanting to do for a while, and after last months massive self doubt attack, it forced me to get the courage to go. I’m a very shy person, but I’m really glad I forced myself to go!

The Art Class is 2 and a half hours on a Tuesday evening, my Art Teacher is so nice and making me do so many different things that I wouldn’t have tried. She’s really pushing me outside my comfort zone a lot, but it’s really fun and rewarding, I intend to do a blog post about the class sometime soon

I’ve noticed my Sketchbook has really changed since going, I don’t think I’ve done any segment drawings since Art Class as I’m now doing more loose and free sketches. I’m actually having more fun drawing like this :)

I’m still drawing all the time, just one of the things my Art teacher said was I need to concentrate on my contrasts, so I’m trying to slow down my drawing so that they take as long as they take and when I think they are finished, chances are they actually could do with a bit more time. So, I may do less finished drawings each month from now on, but I think it will be worth it.

I’ve also started posting Work In Progress (WIP) photos to my Twitter feed, such as the one I started at the weekend. I have tons of these from most of my drawings but I never know what to do with them lol

The final thing, Meditation, is where I think the most blurryness of February went lol Again, that self doubt I had last month made me think about a lot of stuff, and it really made me realise I need to do something about my shyness in groups of people, I’ve suffered from it for as long as I can remember. I had already picked up a book I heard about on the Artists Helping Artists podcast called “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One”.

I had bought it back in November and had no idea the book was going to be using meditation as a technique, but I was happy when I found this out, as I’ve always wanted to try meditation for many years. I want to do a blog post about meditation including links to various resources, such as Podcasts I have found, so I won’t go into too much detail.

Thing is though, at the moment I’m meditating about 2 hours a day, so it’s quite a lot of time and it emotionally just drains you sometimes. It just feels so worth it though as it makes you feel so different deep down inside. It’s made me think a lot about my relationship with my Mum and so I’ve been spending more time with her lately, trying to help make her happy.

I went into meditation wanting to overcome my shyness but it’s literally turning into a way more life changing thing that that. You look at life so differently, the people around you and why they do the things they do, and your own thoughts and behaviours. It’s pretty powerful stuff, I expect in a month or so I will have the meditation down to about an hour a day which will be much easier for me to handle.

You also see some crazy cool things when you do meditation, I’ve been making notes and I honestly expect some of my meditation experiences to become paintings one day :) So that’s it, a very busy, strange month to be honest!